Why I...

What do I throw these parties every weekend? I am not sure anymore. I think I started because I wanted to gain fame and prestige, but know all I want is her. I thought maybe, just maybe, if I became so well known, that the people of East Egg would hear of me, including Daisy. I thought maybe, she would remember who I am and leave her husband. In the beginning I liked the parties, but now I just stare at the people and I think to myself, "I do not know more than half of these people." So I guess I am not sure why I have these parties anymore. I can only guess that some part of me still believes that I can be with her and hopes that she may finally show up at my door.